Matrimony, love, and weddings. It’s something many young girls dream about. Weddings are planned right down the the napkin rings, lovingly coordinated and of course all matched perfectly. A quick glance at the divorce statistics (especially of first marriages) goes to show no matter how […]
Month: June 2010
Oh, mine hates me openly, it’s a very vicious little digital monster.
Kiddo has basically stopped napping and it’s killing me. She’s almost three, so she does still need it, and really I need it too. Normally that is the time where I find my quiet time and my work time. It used to work out nicely, just not so much anymore.
At those rare times where I feel eighteen different ways of pumped up, I can get a lot done. For real, I’m like a writing machine*. Unfortunately, those days are few and far in between. I really need to work on my work and family balance, to get to the actual point of this post (aside from my little clock illustration up there). In all honesty, I’m having a lot of issues lately in finding that perfect balance. It comes and goes, but lately it seems more gone that not.
I’m not avoiding parental duties or anything, but, it’s harder for people to understand how things work when I work from home. Most see it as ‘not real work’ or me just goofing off.
It’s aggravating. To say the very least.
Obvs kiddo comes first, but bills also need to be taken care of. For that, I need to work. It would be nice to not have any, and I do my best to minimize the ones I have (and do a pretty good job of that, thank you very much). Yet, as a one parent household it all falls on me and my shoulders. It’s not easy, and I wish I could just dedicate my time fully and completely to kiddo but we need to eat, pay what needs to be paid, and that requires me to work.
I’m okay with that, others aren’t. Sure,I know the whole thing about not thinking about what other people think, but lets face it- that’s hard to do. I catch a surprising of crap from people about how much time I have to work and how I work, and while it’s not even as much time a normal office job, it does seem like more when it’s me at home on my computer. Those typical jobs don’t pay the same, and are significantly harder to come by for someone who has the resume I have (writing and design doesn’t translate over well to most jobs). It doesn’t matter to them that I make similar amounts, or that I get to be home with kiddo. The fact that I am home seems to be the only part that is ever focused on. Yet, if I were in a more traditional workplace, I’d be spending less time with her.
I typically have the same canned types of responses namely letting whomever know that they can feel more than free to pay me the same thing I make already, and I won’t work. So far, no one has taken me up on that though. They still don’t let up.
Admittedly, it’s getting to me lately. By the way, yes I am whining. Sorry about that (okay no, no I am not).
*Yes, I am aware that would make me a computer. That isn’t what I meant darn it.
I’ll get this right off the table right off the bat, I am an Atheist and I don’t believe or pray to any higher power at all. I do however understand prayer and why people pray, as I also come from a religious family. My […]